a picture says a thousand words...

that reply struck me right in my face
never once that thought was going through your mind, never?
how silly am i to have that thought running through my mind since that day
how silly...
to you, i think i'm just a normal library card which whether you bring it along with you or not. it doesn't matter. cause its just a useless card with no usage...
this is how reality show me how cruel it is in life

i was alright when i have things to occupy my mind
when i'm alone, i can't help but to keep thinking of it
rachel asked me, how did i overcome it so fast.
my reason was, i didn't overcome it. i'm just suppressing it, till no ones can see through it...
it was harder than what you ppl can think of...
she also ask me how can i manage to sleep through my night, my answer was
i'm tired but i can't sleep. if i slept, i will be waking every now and then.
whats the different between got sleep and waking up every now and then...
its equally tired..
that 'waking up so many times in the night' is here...
i think my face really shows how shag am i now...
gotta do something about it man
i wanna be busy like a BEE!
so i will have no extra time to even have to think about it..
because when i have the chance to even think of it, i will miss you a lot...
more than what you think it is
and when that thought came through, i wonder. what about you? are you thinking of me too?
how much courage i have just to initiate, you will never know.
since your actions already proved what you really want and you just don't wanna say, maybe its better that i just said it out.
struggling to open my mouth
saying that was like killing myself.. it hurts, so badly
this was the FIRST time i cried like a mad woman, indeed a mad woman
i didn't expect that too, didn't expect its really so MUCH


imissyou, a lot. what about you?

how much longer can i endure this loneliness?

while talking to my friends, i asked them about their expectations towards their bf
they came up with things which may sound unreasonable, may sound hopeless and what about mine? haha

is my expectations too high for you even to touch it?
lowering my expectation to fit yours
i saw changes in you and time can prove everything
but how much longer am i supposed to wait?
wait till the cow comes home?
why is it that when i'm starting to see some changes, and its back to original again.
having to just contact each other for just 1-3hours per day or even lesser
what kind of r/s are we in?
every now and then when i thought of it, my heart felt so heavy
i know i want changes in the way you treat me and i know, its not an immediate effect.
i will wait, but how long can i wait? few weeks? few months? or years?

do you feel the same way i felt towards you?
it will be something i might know/not know at all

it was there and then, i really realized where do i really stand...
all along i only know i was important, but i was wrong to doubt my position in your heart.
now i finally realized, i wasn't just in a spot but everywhere..
it struck me of your importance in my life..
it was there and then, i know.
i know that you will be the one, but i won't expect much cause i might have disappointments in the end.
so...just follow the flow will do.

btw...what you said, it will always be a scar there. like what i did. so i'm willing to do my best to prove/ to gain it back i once had.
as for the words said, shall let the time heal...
i'm willing to walk down this road with you, as long as you're there with me.

i finally came to realize, all along you are very important to me.
deep down in my heart, you're already in it.
just that i don't dare to admit but now, who cares!
I'M PROUD TO SAY YOU'RE MY BF.

iloveyou my bf, yewjun <3

if you think by breaking all contacts from you, i'm enjoying it.

the fact is i don't...

i'm crying inside, its just that you don't even know.

the power of invisible tears...